Candle Light Dinner

Candle light dinner

In the moonlight 

Candle light dinner

In the moonlight

Every single day to the same place

See if I find my boy today

Candle light dinner

In the moonlight

Candle light dinner

In the moonlight

Angels and Demons

 If there's nothing more I'd like to say

Actually, I'd like to say

That I've been sailing some big waves

My dreams to have been a sea of wonder

A plague had plagued me

And played me as I slumbered

I wanted to stay awake

I wanted to dream big like those waves

But sleep gets heavy when the brain is tired

I wonder if I wondered too much about wonder

I think that my attempts have failed

But I've gained a level of respect

The voices are a camera

And I am their star

I shine through the night

I breathe in the daylight

I don't die but I don't live

Actually, sometimes I'm the protagonist of my dreams

Serves me right to suffer the way I do

Because I don't behave like I should

Still, I am human and my soul needs rest

This Schizophrenia is a place to lay my head

I feel like I will go into the hallucinations right

I won't be too lonely

So I won't fear the light

I won't fear the games

The angels and demons like to play for fun

This is where I stop.

By: Brandy Ruiz

Schizophrenic

The door has been lifted

I've been sifting through my brain for gold

A fool I have been

Fools gold,

Any fear that has remained

is going

But in its place

Nostalgia and regret

I've thought it hard

I have to push through

To gain more control

And let go of what I do

Do you understand?

I need to stay awake

I need to feel that I

Can be in a better place.

Can this mean that I won't quit?

Or will I get so fascinated that I just quit?

By: Brandy Ruiz

Get Out Of Me

Get out of me

I'm shouting from the inside

Get out of me

I feel like I have nothing

The voices are friendly

The voices have been mean

Get out of me

I'm feeling like a key,

The doors have opened

And the only thing I can do is go through

Get out of me

Because there's something I can do

I can play the game

I can chase you to your home

I can write these lines

That makes my home

Get out of me

Because it's calling to the truth

Get out of me

Because if not the key is no use.

By: Brandy Ruiz

Chanel Pari

As you crawl from the carpet to the bathroom floor,

What goes on in your mind, Chanel Pari?

Are your knees made of strong metal?

Chetore!

Are your elbows?

Your wrist pound the floor with such wonder,

What goes on in that pretty pretty head?

I wonder.

Are you looking for something specific?

To pull on or put in your mouth?

I see your smile and smile extatic,

Your joy gives me life,

Do I struggle to understand?

Shalom?

No.

Don't touch that.

No.

Don't put that in your mouth!

Hello.

A poem for my niece.