Simpler Love

What's that feeling?
The lingering essence of love?
Can you believe it?
Cartoons and animation gets it wrong.
I love you, Love, but you must succumb,
To the lingering lingering essence of love.

House Party

I'm currently working security for God's door, Where are you?
You stared at me from behind the door frame,
Where was I?
You and your friends moved closer to me,
I watched you in the hall,
Was it hell?
Go figure
A good time.

Fleeing Bird, I am Danger

He's only a couple of years older than me,
I am turned on by it,
I led him on and he tested my fleetness,
I stole a cheek and then I kissed him,
I had a moment and now I love.
I want him, I want him,
I want him a lot!

My Boy!

I feel like static,
I'm ecstatic,
Blue balls nigga draggin,
Shits fantastic!

Stranger Things on the Road

Stranger things,
And there's only cars on the road,
An old van with my father and sister in the back seat,
But they weren't really my family;
Just lookalikes.
I'm not sure what's happening,
I feel footsteps outside the car door,
Running?!
Running down the freeway,
Danger!
Danger's coming with me-
Mayday!
Mayday!
Mayday!

Rules Of Prey

Since dropping out, I've struggled with reading.

I read the first couple of days, weeks, some times; But I had a mental breakdown.

I'm now reading a few pages and hoping that I'll read one more time.

I'm now reading a "sleek and nasty..." (Stephen King) book from the #1 New York Times Best Author John Sandford. The book is Rules Of Prey.

I read one or two books from John Sandford's Prey series in my teenage years.

I fell in love with him. I was hooked. The criminal and the detective struggling to connect the dots...

Ah, but I READ THEM OUT OF ORDER. So, I had to start again on my own and start from the beginning.

A page a day keeps the locos away. Que no?

The Change Collector: Back to Basics

I'm planning on collecting change and putting it into a piggy bank. I went to the "Cultura" section of the local grocery store and bought a guitar shaped "piggy bank" for $12.99. I'm obviously hoping to make the money I spent on it back as the days go by. I plan to add one dollar a day and loose change. As the days go by, I'll be saving for Christmas gifts. I'm sure my family will love some love on this day in particular. There's just something special about it. Bite me.

El Sueño

El soñar que sea con patas,

patas para correr.

Sueña, Sueña con patas,
patas para correr.

Because Of Me

Here I am, craving a heart or two or three thousand, alittle bit noisey, my heart is a coming-- they are coming, they are near; I will be able to see them. Because I fear, God. I have to be a Goddess. Because I see me free. I think it's in the AM. It might be, just because of me. The darkness sees light and my hand touched his back. A well rounded long distance relationship doesn't last.

Please Give It To Me

I want and need feedback.
If I don't get it,
I'll live under a rock.
Put on my socks and walk on a pillow of clouds.
A rocky foot.
A needing touch to soothe.
I rock the boat to reach shore with a come up.
I need a new pair of shoes.
All the love, ugh.

Glass Ceiling

Tell me the news, anchor man.
Oppression makes people smart.
I really don't like people knocking on my door.
You're a handful and fight more than the girls.
I see you.
You get paid more and there they go.
The girls.
The field.
There's no place for my place.
Catch and release to my escape.
Yes, now I'm unemployed.

UCBerkeley: Looking Back at College Life

I should have taken it as a compliment. Satanic Berkeley however, has a lot to say. I lost my way and ran away. To look back at my experience I see how experimented we all were. I grew to fear my friends. I feared my own mind and that of everyone else- muted forever.

I broke down and fell down the stairs. I lost my keys and lost my newspaper. I sought help but God was shifting. I was loyal to Jesus, but I ripped my rosary off my neck. I looked back at myself for only a few seconds then. Without sleep, I was back in L.A. that very week. I blew it.

My roommate and her friends played with Satan. If not more than half the house felt the same energy oozing off the co-op walls. I fell in love. I dropped out. Love was a mistake. Love was, the house was mine. The boys were mine and the girls my friends. I couldn't find God in a place like this after the angels fell from the sky or the demons unchained in the common space. The parties bumped and the people got triggered. A shot here and there in and around me with music. I was hurt bad.

I still dream of college life. I lived it and know what it's about. I don't want to do the same mistakes hanging around the wrong crowd. I expected new experiences but my values and lifestyle conflicted with the new people I was hoping to befriend. After all of this, I still have some college peepz on my Facebook that I partied with but it wasn't that serious. I think about deleting them but then I remember how great school felt because of Facebook and I still want to feel the old me is around. The scholar. The Latina. The leader.

Blue Bird on a Red Cliff

Blue bird blue bird on a red cliff,
Blue bird see the red sky?
It dies at night,
Blood moon looming,
Green lining on the red cliff,
The killers are shooting,
In the dark sky,
Blue bird blue bird I see your orange beak,
Orange you gonna change?
Knock knock it's your frememy,
You're not feeling the fake,
I'm not feeling the pace,
You niggas fake,
And killing the game,
In the middle I scope,
You not changing for fame,
You're changing for dope,
Pleasure,
You changing for leisure,
You're changing for me.

The Frosting Melted

Fire to warm the beast,
Out of these shackles break free,
I'm in hiding from the men in my life,
I'll tell you more but you might cry,
I dont deny I lived a strict life,
Loyal to the drugs, school and life,
SCHOOL WAS A PHASE,
I'd correct my love for a few mistakes,
Behold jury duty was a test,
If I say more you won't regret,
Love me love me till the end,
Love me love me make no mistake,
If I'm correct you're the love of my life,
If I'm correct you'd love me love me for a long time,
And I think I like that on the side,
Please.