Burger Tears

I just ate Burger King's Impossible Burger ordered from Uber Eats and my food arrived cold. I was slightly upset but ate it anyway.

A Tweet to Remember by Me

The time coils and spoils. Thrust forward or lounge into nothingness.

Dec. 20, 2011

I just realized I've been going through a spiritual crisis this entire semester. It explains everything... I guess my only concern now is, how to get back to where I was mentally, emotionally, spiritually? Ever since I came to Cal, I feel like my life and values have been shook. I question who I am all the time and it drives me nutts. Maybe I should have majored in Philosophy instead of Sociology... or maybe I'm just fucked :/

Straight Flexing in a Dream

Trying to get crunchy like a Frito, lay back with a kilo, smoke some like a dealer, enjoy life with a stylo. Oh yeah. #rapgame #allme

Just Watch

Nigga you a simple bitch

You don't know when to quit

Jump up and down on the dick like a pogo stick

Jeopardy on my mind

Disrespect till it's a crime

Back hand the next man that is in line

Chumps eat the pussy on my time...

Lol I just came up with this. #rapgame #Freestyle

Immigrants Don't Eat Here

What happened to people? The old witch said. They can't hold their breath forever. They must die. To the left, my pumpkin. To my right, my pudding. The people are waiting to eat. But they will get what they deserve. They will become more than just guests. They will be remembered.

The Rap Game Inspiration

I'm in my second episode of The Rap Game. I'm inspired. This is my output. Yeah like a computer, I'm tougher. Her me you go:

Nigga, I'm on my period, period. Nigga with the willingness, spirited. TRYING SUCK MY SHIT WHEN I'M FEELING CATFISH, BLEEDING AND FEELING HE ORDERED THE FAT BITCH, TAP THIS. HEAR HE ORDERING THE BEEF, HE SO DEPRAVED AND ACTING, BACK HAND HIM. #rapgame

Truth Be Told

People just join things to get laid.

Seafood Craving

I want to go to The Boiling Crab. I want to eat the bomb ass spicy shrimp (the whole shabang) and the king crab legs my nieces love so much. The lemon pepper french fries go great with the spicy shrimp. And the gumbo is delicious too. I wouldn't eat the soft shell crab again, but I would order the catfish one more time. Mostly though, I want a pound of shrimp and a glass of water.

Thought Of The Day

time is fleeting my heart is beating I cant help feeling like I'm lost in time

Little Possessed Dolls

Behind the toilet, doors, and dark corners of our house, they crept and crept; my fear rising. I still don't recall the movie, but it terrorized my childhood. They killed. The dolls. I can't imagine my life without remembering the anxiety. They scared me every day. These possessed dolls made their presence felt. As I grew older and smarter they disappeared. Oh, the haunt!

Lucifer On Fall

The leaves are falling, 

Like the chile flakes onto my dinner plate,

I see through the window that everything's going to be alright,

It's the weather, 

The sign that makes me feel better, and safe,

Falling leaves take your time,

Take my breath away,

From the bottom of my heart,

It's not too late,

To feel the love we obsessed about the other day,

We promised to love until death comes around,

And after that I'll still remember you the trees that helped me breathe so proud.

Virgin Mary

My tooth hurts, and still, I chomped and nibbled on my Mexican street corn with gratefulness and necessity to restore a long lost memory of my childhood. My mother and I enjoyed our snack watching the men build a stage that would be used by musicians on the day of the Virgin Mary's birthday celebration. I left East L.A. sharing a feeling of happiness as I drank my "agua de naranja". Love.

Her birthday celebration is on Thursday 12-12-2019.

Preemie

Corre corre corre little blue one,

Your feet so little,

Little blue feet,

Little cold nose,

Little eyes,

Little thighs,

Young blue one,

You're so beautiful,

Love you and love you,

Be with you soon.

About "Remembering Thanksgiving 2019"

I'd like to thank my nieces for playing a game with me. The previous post exists because of them. I had writer's block and I wanted to end it. I asked them to give me one word or two, just randomness, to get my brain started. They gave me three each. The first one was "Birthday" and "Flowers". Which immediately had me thinking about my ex-boyfriend, but I was not going to write about him tonight. The second choices were, "Shoes" and "Treadmill". The thought of tight shoes on the street gave me a bad feel. I couldn't wait for another idea. Finally, on the third try they said "Thanksgiving" and "Cooking". Ding! Ding! Ding! Thus my writing the previous post, "Remembering Thanksgiving 2019". Thank you girls. I might just keep using you for generating thoughts. KK Latez

Remembering Thanksgiving 2019

My Thanksgiving 2019

The ham was overcooked.
Four pies were baked.
The following day, the perfect ham was made.
I drank too much soda
And ate King's Hawaiian sweet rolls.
My goal wasn't the ham though,
thus the reason for the burnt and dried out ends.

Where was my head?

I not only burned the ham, but the expensive butternut squash too.
I set it, and forgot it.
I finished straightening my hair when I checked the oven.
I saw the perfectly diced butternut squash sizzling with honor in the oven, to my dismay, they were charred black on the bottom.

I felt blue.
But anyway, aside from the butternut squash, I did make four perfect side dishes for Thanksgiving that made my heart soar like a feather in the wind.
I got compliments.
I was happy.
The side dishes were the following: Corn Bread Muffins, Mac n Cheese, Green Bean Casserole with Bacon, Mashed Potatoes and Gravy.

Writer's Block Be Gone!

I've been wondering about my writing. I have literally not written a thing but tweets. I don't write my thoughts down. I don't forgive myself. I can't write down the flow, song, or poem. In fact, I give up on writing short stories as well. I dream of these stories. I want them to be real. I want them. I need them to be alright. I'm out of my mind. But I'm gonna challenge myself. I'm going to write a paragraph. I don't know what it'll be about but I'ma give myself a week. Look for my next post and comment. I hope it's something cool. It could be about anything. I'm going to surprise myself and then post.

Mother Nature In Labor

The more we study, the more art gets pushed out into the world. Like mother nature in labor. So be smart, study, be smart, accept to draw. Be sure it's best to be here, in the future. Rather than in the precarious present where uncertainty is sure to destroy if not change the way of the world; In a way that limits the common genius in a direct manner. Laziness is a disease. A social disease that must be challenged by educational systems and workforces so as to stop the crippling effects laziness is having on our culture. We need to overcome. We need to find the strength to push our babies forward into a better light.

Ignore the Burning Bridges

It happens to every one differently

At different times in their life

God gives signs and sends others to hell in the world

That's just life

The streets are telling everyone

When I'm in the field

To forget it

Wild mistakes, bad deals, bad sex

Nothing like it

And I'm here

I confront my fears

I don't forget it

It's happening for me

Fuelling the cars riding the burning bridges

I'm hardly able to ignore the burning floor.

Becoming

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The Business

God shows up sometimes. The then dead end continues. Present the next quarter. It goes in the machine where all the gifts are plentiful. Thanks God. 🤑 Not everyone has a quarter.

Car Crashes Into Fire Hydrants

There was a car accident. My mom wanted to stay and watch the action, but to her annoyance, my brother and I wanted to go home. I don't feel bad. I also don't get why you'd want to be observing an accident and not want to be helping; She'd just be spectating. Anyway, one car crashed into a fire hydrant and water exploded and drowned the cars nearby. I felt the drops of water as we passed the intersection. This is a heavy reminder as I research and try to learn about driving a car. I've never really had someone to show me. On a special note, I will become an alert and skilled driver.

Rude On You...

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In My Pocket

Money in my wallet like I need it,
I need it I need it,
I'm putting all the demons in the bank,
And catching feelings catching feelings,
No nigga insight,
My nose is bleeding,
Believing on catching dealings,
I need to get it,
Bumping music loud,
No shit
I'm rock steady steady breathing,
I ate my plate and got the fame on heaven,
I don't regret it,
Don't you forget it,
It was a tough road but I came and see,
It was a thing,
Best breathe,
My gat in your teeth,
No need for dead meat.

Short Circle

Pain.
Why take it out?
Leave it in.
You will live longer,
But death is inevitable.

Update On the Drive

I passed the DMV Driver's Knowledge Test, Monday. I passed on my second of three tries. It's the third time I applied for a driver's permit. I'm happy because I'm going to wait alittle longer to get lessons. "What kind of car should I get?" I've been thinking. Maybe two weeks upto a month of mental conditioning will be enough to get ready to hit the road.

Note to Self: I Take Control

The following is the update I gave my psychiatrist today about my current stage of life. This note is about my life and the voices I live with and hear daily. They are allowing me to type these words down. Because it will bring attention, I think. ...Ah, silence! 

"they don't remind me. they try tho. they talk in a matter of social order. they're civilized and care about their reputation. they seek to create relationships and I think they can help connect me through dreams. my world."

She prescribed anxiety medication. 

Mental Health Day: You Matter

I have Schizophrenia. What do you have? Mental Health Matters. I matter. You matter whether you have insurance or not. I'm one of the lucky that has Medi-cal and can get free treatment. Try to get treated if you're depressed or have severe anxiety, etc. I was shocked when I was diagnosed. Every night I take meds to be in a better mood the next day. I could be sick or I could not. I'm taking the doctor's diagnosis to heart and trying to keep treated. I'm different and a mix of my past. I love it to be honest. I feel though like I don't even need the meds, but my constant audio hallucinations tell me I need some kind of help. So I'm medicated for kindness. They will not bully me or throw me in a box. I am different and I love life.

Stars

I devoured the weak.

The strong butt heads.

Sweet to drink.

There's no escape.

The dead relate.

The living shed.

Blood hits the deck.

Drive Drive Drive Muthafuckas

I'm still studying for my driver's permit. I might go tomorrow. I might not. Idk. I care, but things happen. I'm trying to grow a pair of nutts and not drink any alcohol. Lol. I'm watching Super Bad. Can you tell I have the steady hand? Lol! Kk Latez. DMV I'm coming.

The Future Is Fire

The future comes from within. The internal contradiction, fire. The flames are the future. The dust settling to plans. Plans uplift the soul. It's important to never forget the struggle and you must hangup on some calls. Remember the future needs you though, so good luck.

Bouncing Off the Grind

I got killers in the backseat,
I'm driving to the fucking moon,
I got niggas in the frog suit,
I got niggas jumping around too,
Nigga I'm so high,
I can barely touch the sky,
I can barely climb the ladder,
I can barely tell a lie.

Busy Plotting... Candy Paint

Listening to Post Malone... he's everything.

Date or Die

You'll say you're the devil
With the smoking gun.
I'm not afraid of you
Reaching for the gun...
Maybe you're just fun?

New Death

Stop pushing on me,
A river will flow!
You're about to die,
How does the game go?
Enough is not enough,
It's time coming to claim your life,
Death is not the same,
Maybe you can suck him off,
You give and you might get,
Life's full of joy,
I know I don't forget,
Sex is just the same,
Love is just to claim.

From Vegan to Meat Eater... Crap

I've been eating meat since my last post. I got lazy and didnt feel like writing down what I've ate. Does it matter? Does anyone care, anyway?

Anyway, I'm going to make a conscious effort to eat less meat and dairy again. Pray for me.

Vegan For Two More Weeks- Day 3

No breakfast because I slept in.
Chicken and beef w hummus and white rice for lunch.
Dinner: idk yet

I'm failing this vegan challenge for sure. But I will keep trying to limit what I eat for the sake of my health and the world.

Close Friends

My nigga game on point. I'm not fucking wit u niggas any more. I can make your hands clap. Like how your girl's doing it with her ass. Clap back and step back. U know what it is. Nigga I'm on my grind. You're distracting like a lie.

Vegan For Two More Weeks- Day 2

Breakfast: Apple
Lunch: Wingstop (I ate about 10 chicken wings.)
Dinner: Spicy Popeyes chicken sandwich and later tonight I had four and a half mulitas de carne asada

Obviously, today wasn't a vegan day. This being the case, I need more vegan days if I want to respect the world and lose weight.

Vegan For Two More Weeks- Day 1

So, here I am trying to reverse my controlled diabetes by eating healthier... eating like a vegan or vegetarian. There are many food options and restaurants out there serving this delicious healthy food and I want to jump on the bandwagon. The road to a better body and healthier lifestyle has commenced.

Breakfast: Apple Jack's cereal with soy milk and a cup of orange juice
Lunch: Black bean and chipotle veggie burger with fries
Dinner: Benihana Trio which was filet mignon, chicken breast and colossal shrimp grilled with lemon and butter.

I've obviously failed with my non vegan dinner, but I'm gonna keep trying.

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 14

Today is the last day of my "going vegan" challenge. I had like two or three non vegan meals in the past two weeks.

Today, I ate: Cheerios with soy milk for breakfast
Lunch: Black bean and chipotle veggie burger with fries
Dinner: Popeyes chicken

I'm obviously back to my meat eating ways as I ate a wing, leg, and thigh. I've kept up my weight loss. Total, for these two weeks, I tracked that I lost and kept off 10 pounds. Veganism rules!

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 13

Breakfast: Cheerios and soy milk
Lunch: Gordita (beef)
Dinner: Pasta with meatless meatballs

I'm sorry vegan world for eating meat. Cheat day?

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 12

Cherrios and soy milk for breakfast.
Gordita and elote from El Mercadito for lunch. Yes, there was meat. I ate. I enjoyed but can't help but feel good about the times I did not eat meat. In between breakfast and lunch, I had a vegetarian cheese stick and a churro. I'm broke my vegan streak once again. Tomorrow I already know I'm choosing my leftover gordita. Breakfast will probably be cereal again and dinner will be something vegan, I'm sure.

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 11

Special K with soy milk for breakfast.
Lunch: I forgot what I ate w a vegetarian cheese stick.
Dinner: Fettuccine Alfredo w chicken, I ate around the chicken. & a cup of tortilla soup that had beef in it. I ate it. I'm still trying to be vegan.

Update: I broke my diet. I ate pork ribs in green salsa w sliced nopales, a side of white rice and beans.... awww man. I also ate a concha. I don't know how vegan those are.

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 10

I ate a bowl of fruit loops for breakfast. I ate three potato and cheese tacos with cucumber for lunch. I ate dairy-free yogurt for snack. And for dinner, I ate a salad from California Chicken Cafe. It was good. My only non vegan thing I ate was the Monterey jack cheese that my sister put in the mashed potatoes.

Update: I couldn't resist. My niece brought me her leftovers. Guess what I ate? Shrimp and sausage with potatoes from the Boiling Crab. Omg!

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 9

Okay so I'm still going to try to be vegan even though I ate a turkey sub for lunch today. I ate a bowl of fruit loops for breakfast. And I'm going to eat something vegan for dinner.
Update: Dinner was meatless strips with veggies. Also a small bowl of cereal.
I just ordered large fries from Burger King. Goodnight.

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 8

Breakfast: Special K strawberry cereal with dairy-free milk
Lunch: Three potato tacos with chopped lettuce and cucumber
The potato tacos were not dairy-free. The cheese came from a cow.
Dinner: Spicy eggplant with brown rice

I failed being completely vegan.

Update: Snack time: I ate a bag of Hot Cheetos and a mango.

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 7

For breakfast I had Cheerios cereal. For lunch I had a double veggie burger. I'm still waiting to see what I'll eat for dinner.

Update: I've lost 9 pounds. Also, for dinner I ate a cup of corn with lemon and chile. What's more, I ate pasta & tomato soup with a quesadilla. The cheese was vegetarian. I know I'm not completely going vegan eating cheese. But my sister's right. I'm close enough. Okay, it's messed up to someone that I'm eating animal products, but hey, I'm trying to be vegan. I'm trying!

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 6

Breakfast: dairy-free yogurt and banana
Lunch: veggie dog and leftover squash
Dinner: tofu spaghetti
Snack: cucumber, mango, melon

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 5

Hello! It was a tough one today. For breakfast, I ate a dairy-free yogurt and banana. For lunch, I ate a veggie burger from Hook Burger. I also ate a salad and onion rings as a late lunch, early dinner, from Hook Burger a couple hours later. Dinner was squash with cheese. Pinto Beans. Nopales in green salsa and white rice. The cheese had milk but it was vegetarian. Obviously, I messed up because I didn't eat vegan today as I eat the cheese. Also, the noplaes were cooked with pig ribs. It's effort I'm putting in though. I'm not gonna be too hard on myself. I passed on the meat and chose the green.

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 4

It's day 4. I'm still following a vegan diet. At breakfast I ate a dairy-free yogurt with blue berries. My sister ordered a meatless steak salad for me to eat for lunch. I ate it. It was delicious. I ate a vegan burger for a early dinner and I ate it with a side of Thai vegan steak fried rice. I preferred the burger. I actually made tomato soup to eat with a quesadilla for a light night time dinner. I fed my nieces and nephew the same thing. They loved it. I love that they eat and love my cooking. I'm surviving this two week challenge.

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 3

Let's be honest. I am not great at following strict diets. So, I'll explain what I did. For breakfast, I had a dairy-free yogurt with apple slices. I ate a pear when I went to my psych appointment. Brunch was a 6-inch Veggie Delight and chips from Subway. I added avocado and chipotle southwest sauce. I'm not so sure the sauce was vegan but I had to have it. I washed it down with a fountain drink; I'm not drinking soda from now on. It's been three days. I was satisfied. Moreover, I had an almost vegan lunch. I made myself a vegan patty with avocado and tomato slices. I realized the dairy-free mayo is not vegan because it contains eggs. I ate the burger. It was really tasty. It was good. I loved it. I want another one. I can't wait to make it tomorrow, maybe. Anyways, for dinner, I ate a cup of green chile potatoes soup and an hour later I had meatless meatballs with garlic butter spaghetti. My night was well until I went home and heard my dad wanted cucumber and mangos. I felt the craving. I cleaned the fridge and peeled my mango. I cut it up and smothered this juicy mango with chamoy. It was a midnight snack. I didn't break the diet. Here comes the first meal of day 4. Let's see what choices I make.

Funny Time Feels

Wrote this in my notes today. It's for fun.

Nigga I'm the future,
stop jumping lines,
I bet u got a shooter,
waiting for his time,
Let me get fed up,
all I want is a halo,
I got a band for real,
all I need to do is say so

I bet you horny, huh
find me in the sack sack sack,
you say you're lonely, huh
say that you dont know me, huh
Get ready cuz I'm horny some

Get a gangster forreal,
Catch these niggas in a rap,
Can you imagine the feels?
Can you imagine these niggas?
Can you imagine the heels?

I got a gold chain around my neck,
and killers out the door for ya,
gimmie some pills,
keep you lit,
I got a song for ya

Your predictions were wrong,
I'm still alive,
I let one slip,
two more times and I run

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 2

It's day two being vegan. Breakfast was dairy-free yogurt and apple slices. Lunch was left over vegan chicken fried rice, vegan chicken tenders, and steamed veggies. Dinner was so delicious. I helped make green chile potato and vegan cheese soup. I could be drinking more water. I'm trying to remember to drink more. But overall, it's been a good day.

Update: I ate an avocado.

Haunted Elementary Bathroom

I was scared. I clenched my gut with fear. I was alone. In the dark. I screamed. I opened the door. I ran. The two girls that took me to the girl's bathroom to play a terrible trick on me were not in sight. I might have heard laughter. I might have seen them. But I ran. Ran into someone. My mother? My father? It was after school. I was scared. Bloody Mary was the game they forced me to play. Assholes. I moved schools for personal reasons. There was also a haunted bathroom in the upstairs bathroom of the school I was now attending. I would not walk or want to be around that bathroom. I could feel the haunted nature of it all. Was it the kids? Was it the bathroom? Or was it really real? I've seen a demon woman outside my window one day at home. Was I followed? Or are all elementary school bathrooms haunted? Or was it just me. I mean, there was a consensus that the school bathroom was haunted. So, that leads me to believe, I wasn't just followed, but elementary schools have a haunted bathroom. What was your elementary school bathroom experience like?

Vegan For Two Weeks- Day 1

I'm a Vegan! It's been exactly one day actually. I'm so proud of myself. And although I had to make a chuck steak dinner for my family tonight, I only ate vegan food all day. I ate apple slices and dairy-free yogurt for breakfast. I ate seasoned tofu and a veggie medley for lunch. Dinner was three small meals. I bought a side salad from Sharky's and ate my salad inside the nail salon I had just got my mani-pedi in. After the nail salon, I thought about food. So my second meal an hour later was a portion of vegan fried rice with "chicken" and a side of brussel sprouts. Lastly, my third meal was a plate of pinto beans and green chili salsa my mom made that sent me home and was definitely for the win. As I cooked the chuck steak, my mom added garlic slices. I must confess. I love garlic. So to my plate of pinto beans I added the garlic cloves and so in all its juices, I picked the garlic pieces and added them to my dish. I admit, animal fat is cool and all but I didn't really taste the meat juice as much as I tasted the garlic. Yes! But I did eat something today that was marinating in beef juices.

Update: I ate a midnight mango with chamoy.

Wish Upon A Star

My mom wants two songs played at her funeral:

Fiesta Cumbiambera

Life. Bodies. A Doppelgänger

Once again, I believe life and bodies are repeated because they are favored by the game that is God's society.

These forms of life and bodies are favored by the popularity, similarities, likeliness of faces, famous places, and lowkey are preferred for their ability of pulling life energy into the game that is society.

High key I've noticed these drivers are driving towards their job and their consciousness which are different but physically the same as if reincarnating or twinning in order to keep the game's societal consciousness working with and through favoritism. This effect must mean that some of us are required to be multiplies for the pleasing of the Gods and people in order to go to the next level.

An exciting end game. or boring strategic game with repetitive players loading the engines with life energy in the game is the game. I don't understand how we could see life as any other thing. Talk to me. Comment something below.

I Dream of You

I have nothing written in my notes,
I'm watching T.V and nothing more,
I feel the light coming through my blinds,
I'm blind to the fact I'm having a good time.
I think of a lover and I'm sure I'm ready
But then again I'm bored,
I'm thinking of dancing in confetti.

Simpler Love

What's that feeling?
The lingering essence of love?
Can you believe it?
Cartoons and animation gets it wrong.
I love you, Love, but you must succumb,
To the lingering lingering essence of love.

House Party

I'm currently working security for God's door, Where are you?
You stared at me from behind the door frame,
Where was I?
You and your friends moved closer to me,
I watched you in the hall,
Was it hell?
Go figure
A good time.

Fleeing Bird, I am Danger

He's only a couple of years older than me,
I am turned on by it,
I led him on and he tested my fleetness,
I stole a cheek and then I kissed him,
I had a moment and now I love.
I want him, I want him,
I want him a lot!

My Boy!

I feel like static,
I'm ecstatic,
Blue balls nigga draggin,
Shits fantastic!

Stranger Things on the Road

Stranger things,
And there's only cars on the road,
An old van with my father and sister in the back seat,
But they weren't really my family;
Just lookalikes.
I'm not sure what's happening,
I feel footsteps outside the car door,
Running?!
Running down the freeway,
Danger!
Danger's coming with me-
Mayday!
Mayday!
Mayday!

Rules Of Prey

Since dropping out, I've struggled with reading.

I read the first couple of days, weeks, some times; But I had a mental breakdown.

I'm now reading a few pages and hoping that I'll read one more time.

I'm now reading a "sleek and nasty..." (Stephen King) book from the #1 New York Times Best Author John Sandford. The book is Rules Of Prey.

I read one or two books from John Sandford's Prey series in my teenage years.

I fell in love with him. I was hooked. The criminal and the detective struggling to connect the dots...

Ah, but I READ THEM OUT OF ORDER. So, I had to start again on my own and start from the beginning.

A page a day keeps the locos away. Que no?

The Change Collector: Back to Basics

I'm planning on collecting change and putting it into a piggy bank. I went to the "Cultura" section of the local grocery store and bought a guitar shaped "piggy bank" for $12.99. I'm obviously hoping to make the money I spent on it back as the days go by. I plan to add one dollar a day and loose change. As the days go by, I'll be saving for Christmas gifts. I'm sure my family will love some love on this day in particular. There's just something special about it. Bite me.

El Sueño

El soñar que sea con patas,

patas para correr.

Sueña, Sueña con patas,
patas para correr.

Because Of Me

Here I am, craving a heart or two or three thousand, alittle bit noisey, my heart is a coming-- they are coming, they are near; I will be able to see them. Because I fear, God. I have to be a Goddess. Because I see me free. I think it's in the AM. It might be, just because of me. The darkness sees light and my hand touched his back. A well rounded long distance relationship doesn't last.

Please Give It To Me

I want and need feedback.
If I don't get it,
I'll live under a rock.
Put on my socks and walk on a pillow of clouds.
A rocky foot.
A needing touch to soothe.
I rock the boat to reach shore with a come up.
I need a new pair of shoes.
All the love, ugh.

Glass Ceiling

Tell me the news, anchor man.
Oppression makes people smart.
I really don't like people knocking on my door.
You're a handful and fight more than the girls.
I see you.
You get paid more and there they go.
The girls.
The field.
There's no place for my place.
Catch and release to my escape.
Yes, now I'm unemployed.

UCBerkeley: Looking Back at College Life

I should have taken it as a compliment. Satanic Berkeley however, has a lot to say. I lost my way and ran away. To look back at my experience I see how experimented we all were. I grew to fear my friends. I feared my own mind and that of everyone else- muted forever.

I broke down and fell down the stairs. I lost my keys and lost my newspaper. I sought help but God was shifting. I was loyal to Jesus, but I ripped my rosary off my neck. I looked back at myself for only a few seconds then. Without sleep, I was back in L.A. that very week. I blew it.

My roommate and her friends played with Satan. If not more than half the house felt the same energy oozing off the co-op walls. I fell in love. I dropped out. Love was a mistake. Love was, the house was mine. The boys were mine and the girls my friends. I couldn't find God in a place like this after the angels fell from the sky or the demons unchained in the common space. The parties bumped and the people got triggered. A shot here and there in and around me with music. I was hurt bad.

I still dream of college life. I lived it and know what it's about. I don't want to do the same mistakes hanging around the wrong crowd. I expected new experiences but my values and lifestyle conflicted with the new people I was hoping to befriend. After all of this, I still have some college peepz on my Facebook that I partied with but it wasn't that serious. I think about deleting them but then I remember how great school felt because of Facebook and I still want to feel the old me is around. The scholar. The Latina. The leader.

Blue Bird on a Red Cliff

Blue bird blue bird on a red cliff,
Blue bird see the red sky?
It dies at night,
Blood moon looming,
Green lining on the red cliff,
The killers are shooting,
In the dark sky,
Blue bird blue bird I see your orange beak,
Orange you gonna change?
Knock knock it's your frememy,
You're not feeling the fake,
I'm not feeling the pace,
You niggas fake,
And killing the game,
In the middle I scope,
You not changing for fame,
You're changing for dope,
Pleasure,
You changing for leisure,
You're changing for me.

The Frosting Melted

Fire to warm the beast,
Out of these shackles break free,
I'm in hiding from the men in my life,
I'll tell you more but you might cry,
I dont deny I lived a strict life,
Loyal to the drugs, school and life,
SCHOOL WAS A PHASE,
I'd correct my love for a few mistakes,
Behold jury duty was a test,
If I say more you won't regret,
Love me love me till the end,
Love me love me make no mistake,
If I'm correct you're the love of my life,
If I'm correct you'd love me love me for a long time,
And I think I like that on the side,
Please.

Pleasure Me

She didn't know about sex. That's what she forgot. The machine made her do it. Penis was just a thought. Tough and rough, soft and coy. Run away run away, played with her toys. Oh yes she forgot, yet remembered every stop. She took him in like a wave of shock. She loved him so much she thought love sucked.

The First Thing I Want Is a New Version For My Doctor

Yup! I have a doctor's note that guac has been watching the show. The first time you insane is a little more of an Easter holiday.

Forever Friend

Am I alright?
Am I okay?
Do I look at my life and say "hooray"?
Does pressure mean that we're done?
Can you forgive that I forgot?
Any point and any way,
It's a personal tale,
That sparks my interest,
Fight for me,
Say I'm okay,
Lover oh love,
Fight with me 'till the end.

Operate Me

Could I swim like a fish in the rain?
Everybody's lonely.
It's making me insane.
We share the new pool.
I forgave.
But never forgot that your a maggot and wish you would rot.
Take your test.
And switch up your personality.
My ego is bare and is your reality.
I'm under major surgery.
I want to heal in a tranquil place.
My heart sharp like unique rocks.
You set me up for disgrace.
But I can't help myself.
I will prevail.
I'll look up words and find a cure for this bitch resting face.
And you will be sorry.

Dude

Happy Birhday Shayan! This one's for you...

You try hard to succeed
The pain of it all is need
Indeed you play songs on repeat
Your will to believe and be
is neat
You are a great man
Planting the seed
Growth will come
Because you are not dumb
Love B.

Stretcher

I got some triple six mula, can't expect a neighbor to understand or follow ur lead chula, driving drunk smelling that dank, like skunk, keep things right do it for the fight or flight, damn the niggas that own their rights, go for gold and do the same, reclaim the land be unafraid, laid and paid, main and made, comb my mane, u get it mang?

I Need You

Hello
Ay
Are you there?
Hello
How are ya?
Do you feel like I feel today?
No?
Nonsense!

Escaping Captor

Captor: Tell me what you know!
Me: The sky is blue and the moon's a light.

Hey Cholo from Your Wife

Gimmie more,
Gimmie dome,
Gimme a funny landlord,
Let me get,
Let me take,
Gimme more of what you saying,
Face the love,
Sugar sugar,
Face it all,
Kiss me more,
Live with rancor,
FREE THEM ALL,
Hey, don't be late little rancor,
BE MY ALL!!

Gucci Games

Gucci on my feet.
Turn around and make it clap.
My purse is Gucci enough to make you sad.
You niggas mad?
In the sack like you dont even know.
Damn, who do it like that?
God gives me a laugh.
You upset?
Too much of life sucks.
Too bad.
The upside update.
Believe in me.
You know come ups.
We fortunate enough to not live in the street.
At the mercy of the bank.
Your account empty.
Yeah were tickling your ass.
Gucci socks got me on lock.
We feeling it a tad.
Enough's enough.
I'm ordering Papa John's
Finishing the Domino's fad.

Can You Stand the Heat?

You were hot
Super Saiyan,
she hears the heart
after all she's mom
knowingly kicking the door hard
your touch made her love me.
Me falling in love was therapy
and if you got close,
she was gonna ride a sea of cars
white, gray, black,
with money and speed
It's love or death,
remembering the cold poverty
and the rich summer time,
I scream with my mouth
calling for you to come home.

In Orbit

Cut u and fold u like paper origami the terror u share is unforgiven too late to say sorry dreams differed and roads u dead like busted nutt on butts tell me ur afraid again and u'll see what's up I'M NOT AFRAID TO TELL YOU I'M DONE!

Lovers In Motion

She leaves her body to be poetry in motion,

Two butterflies in the back yard playing around each other,

Lovers lie but her wings won't be broken,

She flies with respect of poetry in motion,

She says it all with her silence.

Mom, Is There Anyone Out There?

Hell's not nothing to fuck with,
my mom works his mental,
and supports him,
she jokes with him,
loves him,
unconditionally, because she knows he's a great guy...

After what I wrote, the following thoughts formed by pushing the middle button...

that guac was on a plane to get a job and the other one on the ground is a very small group that guac and I don't want them out of here and I think it's a lot more canela than you can I just think about how many times you insane you and the rest will lock you in a movie.

Once again. Hell ain't nothing to fuck wit. Try to see what you can create using the middle button. 😅

My Love

By the door,
looking through the glass,
I see outside pass.
Longing for romance,
love, love, love,
come back.

Cop Out

Cop out my ass
my ass is hot like my calibrator
cannot wish death on a rat
chronic masturbator
live life like I'm crass
attention it lasts forever
respect the dude that's on my ass
no more too much cream pie on the sack whatever
ihh wha wha on my ass on my ass
ihh wha wha still lovin still fuckin back
ihh wha wha lovin back lovin back
ih wha wha
dont forget to pack
nah nah nah
keep it clean no touch backs
hahaha
fuck u and go
bahaha
do it up on the scene
ihh wha wha
come back come back to me
ihh wha wha
give me more give me more
oh what what
oh what what
Oh what what
Oh what what...

Random Society Connects

You think it's random,
but it's calculative,
The fear grows with the glowing ghost of our graves,
Too close to let it give me pain,
Ooh I boast
Let me see it rain.

We Cry Too

I went to Japan took off my pants went Black not back got in the sack too much to fuck up so I just laid back remembered bad and good times smacked and sad not no nonsense ready on the attack too bad not dat just enough to finish past not damned but arranged for last not enough to give a damn go ahead and be who I am no game like mine go blank you mad?

Drive Safe and Cured

Many left to drive without health security; Driving to never be seen again. The laws on their side are not for everyone. Can it, is it, treatable? Are their symptoms too sever? Uber. Lyft. Drive the future to a new world. Let them see a doctor.

God is the Game

When my sister and her boyfriend fight, I see two Gods not wanting to talk.

I Did it. Then, Backed Out. Things Are Working Out For Me.

High as rich
Broke as fuck
You should go to school
Get to class
Go to work
Hot nickle in this game
Go penny go!

Bystander

I see drama. I'm around. Violence. I stay. I leave. I'm in the streets.

The Race of Car and Man

Nascar died. The devil told me next: "It's here again." My family went once to watch the cars. I didn't, but I won the race. I am here too. We can watch the world play together. Nascar never died. It was all a bad dream.

Mega Huge

Think it. Hope and pray it into existence.

He didn't do it to me. Or did he?

I said u guys, not me. Love was lost but now its found. Is someone alejano in our house? Visiting me here it's high as the shining stars. Someone died twice. People out there looking not in my time...zone. Not of your heart.

Lover be mine. I can let u visit the devil. I haven't met u yet devil. My sister is my secretary. She's hired! I came looking for u don't got to lie. Not clean. Not edited. Can I say I make u work? Mom won the lottery. I'm the best do I still work for her? Do u make my life's decisions?

They just did a test on me someone won. Many can too. He doesn't know what government he works for I was nice. Suicide note it's Harley Quin. The chosen one or I exaggerate? They want to know how many. Too many commercials. To be continued, the baby's corrupt. The mind too!

Go back. Got to young devil. I need to know devil did I... returned  three times. We've stopped the "fearfest". The previous word dumbed down. Everything's good it all checks out. I'm someone else. I have schizophrenia. I'll try to keep it together. I will try to hang in there.

The Song

I need something in my stomach. I need something more than air. She bleeds like her wrist slit. I say I don't care.

The Truth

I was visited by aliens to set the pace.

The Worry

They only listen to the mom and dad. Who listens to the orphans? Is there a place to lie my head? Who's to know? Who's ahead? Let me know. Let it snow.

The Story

Nigga I gotta make that money to buy that guac
You don't understand I'll pull out my glock
My nigga wants my bars cuz he can't get behind bars
Money moving through like On My Block
My nigga's money cashed out
Used to chill on the block
But now I chill with my rubber cock
So sweet
I get it clean
Don't disrespect the click or I swear I won't miss
With you I sweep and mop
I create the diss
Another day of luck
There's more to the story but enough's enough.

The Extension (First Attempt)

It's not only your song
a real bitch
He says I'm riding the beat
All night long!
I don’t freestyle for free
He says that I’m cheap
He thinks I can't hold him
He's mine
Nigga please!
Pass me the bong
All day he’s long
Don’t tell me I’m wrong
the bitch cant hurt me!
Temptation ringing
All these hoes are fiening
Songs I’m believing
Catch me off guard
and I’m creaming
No mercy and I'm leaving!
I see you and laugh
I’m that nigga that keeps it real
We chill until you feel us!
Then were hot
You don’t believe us?!
But we do it for the game
None of my homies are lame
You insane

Better run nigga
Run bitch run to that pole!
Hot money hot money is here
Hot money hot money
Go go
Hot money hot money
Collect it and oh oh
Hot money hot money collect it and
Go go

Trigger a domino effect
I forget the words but feel it in my soul
It's a dead nigga on the floor
So intelligent and charismatic
Had a good deal sway
The many levels on the way
The many levels in full effect
It's train or die
Love some life
Protect your own
Protect others
Remember the lives that gave us a hustle!

Better run nigga
Better run to that pole!
Hot money hot money is here
Hot money hot money
Go go
Hot money hot money
Collect it and oh oh
Hot money hot money collect it and
Go go

The money runs deep
It's not enough to shake your ass
You have to be on beat
Gimmie more of that
Dance for me
Twist and twerk
I’m not a jerk
Tell me I’m understanding
Show me more

Better run nigga
Better run to the pole!
Hot money hot money is here
Hot money hot money
Go go
Hot money hot money
Collect it and oh oh
Hot money hot money collect it and
Go go

Bitch Face

I remember the days I didn't have to pop pills and now the bitch expects me to be happy; like the resting bitch face will leave when she sees me face to face or through the phone screen. She's crazy and out of control. A crippled life. A force that concerns me. Stalked by those I once loved. In the present they find themselves lost. I'm here now. I can lose my mind at any moment but just know I am here. And always have been even through the madness and psychosis. I loved you but you drew the line and I made it far but you should have partied with me instead of sending me to the mental hospital for a diagnosis. You suck. You know who you are. Bitch!

8X

The angels are mean
65 my nigga
pull the trigger on an enemy
check out my tranquility
why did you do it
why dont you let me shine
ignite the rumpapumpum
three necks in a row remember that bum
my nipple popping out ready to eat
I guess its still going down
its like devil
im not burning down your house
gaining speed
seperate our soul
stealing
who are you
expand your brain
give me alittle more
ok friends and family
shes gonna die
you gonna do it too
cook what are you cooking
once in blue moon
hes gonna see me grow up
if I had the support
if we had the restaurants
tried and fails
bright lights just go away
soy una verga
I have alot of balls
I hear the autistic
games and toys
you dont want to know about the gates of hell anymore
hes driping scared
a ticking time bomb
needing a new battery
running on E
no gloves no scale
we played a game
And I like my level
be aware of the noise
this is what Im bringing to the table.

That One Time... Remember?

You don't like noone touching ur heart,
whips and words has he noticed the cards
change?
Drugs embarrased a student,
drugs make a social butterfly boast blasphemous behavior
or to turn into a labored hermit,
it makes them look exciting,
it makes them show a show.
People end life,
people talk back,
But what's worst of if all is...
I tried smack.

Tapping out of Tapout

This month is my last month going to workout at Tapout. It`s too expensive. I`m gonna go to another gym. Boxing has always been interesting. I`m blessed to have gone when I did. I went a couple of times in three months. Unfortunatley, this gym has a commitment thing going on. So I`m out. I gave my two weeks notice.