UFC Night

I saw the UFC fight tonight and the bloody response to the blood in the fight from my mom was to live for. The fight was a bloody hell cage. I enjoyed living sideways to it. The fight was so fluid I was at peace on the internet.

The Years Come With Fan

Oh you got the right, my friend.
Oh, how the spirit mends to look,
shows shelter near seeing sites,
The signs so scare the knowing person.
The waiting spirit lends its time;
You are here now!
But the attention I fear leads me to cry for you to depart from me.
The life, your energy is all there, and
you're not just the air in the fan,
You're something, someone, messed up.
Our heads aren't on straight.

By: Brandy Ruiz

Healthy Stalk

I'm  reviewing the life I'm watching play behind the pixel screen; That is all we get. The frightening prison escapes, the news room mix ups, television replays, and cook show parties that educate us to more, really, they want us to have more. I want more. I want to work. I have a disability. I have to work. One day I will work. I've been caught by the tail in the rabbit hole. It can be a challenge or a "can do", "it's done", attitude, that makes me good to help myself take my medication. Because at the start and end of the day, everything and everyone is and gets important, so it's a must to go back and make it pass because I am next. I can see how difficult it is, but not if you already carry yourself that way. The backhand forth is for families. I like to do both. The world does too. The political world is a challenge. The reality of these medical condition may cause Kidney problems. I'm watching out for that.

Brandy Ruiz

Failed Haiku Pants

My leggings fall,
overweight,
I'm fat,
My feet,
There's water on the floor!
I just came back from "the envelope" being dropped off,
I ate pizza too.
My feet smell rancid,
I go off,
"Smelly FEET!"
Should I wash 'em?

By: Brandy Ruiz

Note: I did with a yellow bar of sink soap

All My Roommates Are My Roommates

One day on the day of the day,
I'll awake broad shouldered and sheltered from far away you'll see me wake.
It's a day to remember.
I saw them think of me.
They could already see me coming.
It's hard work to love you.
How many people have I kept away?
I have felt so much mercy and desperate despair.
I need the day to happen,
After keeping a rent free room for months.

By: Brandy Ruiz

The Watermelon

My nieces and nephew wanted watermelon
I made a plate
I dropped the second storage plate on the ground,
The refrigerator was full
The floor was clean
I stored one large plate,
Forgive, for all is known
I ate a Cup Noodles next;
It was not a family dealing or meeting
It was not a disaster
It was me knowing,
I had to have a meal next,
I left the kitchen to not clean my room.

By: Brandy Ruiz

Bipolar Game (Ended with Medication For It)

The game ended.
I saw three ghosts or aliens,
I rested my head on my pillow,
after using the bathroom,
I'm writing,
I get it,
I'm cool.
It's cool.
"It's a sneak peak.", a voice says.
I think it's playing with my hair,
"Am I one?"
And there it is,
I wait for my Risperdal medication dose.
It treats Schizophrenia.

By: Brandy Ruiz

(Can you be both? A voice says we can be both.)